Can you have a bad day?

January 3^rd, 2022 – the first Monday of 2022, I was gearing up to kick butt.

I was at my desk at 8:30, had my first meeting at nine and, was hosting the weekly working group at 10!

My intentions were set, and I had a lot to do.

Then before the working group was over, I learned that my in-person Taekwondo classes were canceled, there would be no more movies or dinners out. The holiday gatherings I had planned for that weekend were in jeopardy (later canceled). I felt like I had been kicked in the gut. I was angry. I vented to my husband while on mute in the working group.

Then at times, I just wanted to put my head in my hands and cry. Thankfully I know how to state control and controlled those tears until I was alone.

Of my working group members messaged me and shared their grief and anger with me. They were already experiencing appointment cancelations. I understood. It’s frustrating.

As I took my lunch break, I realized I had no motivation or desire to head back up to my desk and work. My ability to kick butt was diminished. I wanted wine, a bath and, a frivolous book.

Eventually, I did wonder back up. I made a real and raw Facebook post to let people know they were not alone. I chatted with friends and cleaned up some emails.

That’s it. That’s all I had in me to do.

No blog post got written.

Month-end did not move forward.

I didn’t prep for tomorrow’s meetings.

Eventually, I closed my day and walked away. Dinner, wine, and a movie cuddled up with my favorite person were my evening activities.

I finished the day by documenting what I’m grateful for and the wins I did have. There is nothing like gratitude and celebration to remind yourself of the good in your life.

Today, I woke up with the intent to kick butt.

I’ve networked, I’ve had meetings, figured out how to send my first newsletter of 2022 through a new platform (yay me!), and I’m writing that blog I abandoned yesterday.